2017 maybe 2018 for me i know it should be sad to me but i really just don't care anymore

i'm not bitter about it or anything

haven't been "in love" since 2012 or so

the time I tried it in 2017, it was with my friend who just broke up with her boyfriend

and was trying to rebound off of me

i was bored and just didn't really care

felt like why not but i struggled to reciprocate

and she desparately clinging to some codependency she had lost

whereas me... just hanging out, might as well fuck

but after the first time i didn't want to do it again

there was a girl i was flirting with everyday for a few months online this year

she lives in the same city as me and i really liked her at first

but she would get so angry over nothing and was always liberal maxxing

i wouldn't even care about that but her.. for her it was never going to work

we don't have sex, sex is for hippies